I have NO idea how to control this

I have mindless thoughts...some actually end up making sense. Others are just complete and utter nonsense that I have no clue how to make sense of. Maybe I truly am crazy...or am I just lost in my own world? I don't think I will ever figure it out...certain things just make me so mad I just hate it. Like yesterday I went to my moms; the air in the house was SO heavy and I couldn't breathe it was like I was suffocating, her house was a mess, my (nephew) he just turned two, he got burned by a cigarette in his eye of all places...the atmosphere of it all made me cringe. There was absolutely no light illuminating into the house it was dark and it felt evil. I could feel darkness all around...it was so intense I couldn't stop fidgeting. Within the thirty minutes of us being there I had to get out...there was no positive energy radiating off of anyone...and at one point I felt a strong need to wonder if something wasn't taking over my mother,but I kept it out of mind...something just felt threatening in there and I didn't like it. I was distraught and utterly angry by the whole atmosphere/environment...I wanted to confront my mother of every little thing that made me angry, but I couldn't. Hopefully, on October 10th I wont feel so much negative energy...hopefully Nate's positive energy will radiate through and I can focus on that.