Heartbreaks can heal its mind over matter

I've had two strong relationships within my lifetime I won't mention names...and by strong I mean each one was powerful in different ways... The first nameless guy I believe truly did love me in the beginning... But my love just wasn't enough for him anymore... And he literally walked out of my life...you would think that was the hardest thing for me...and it literally was I was completely numb...I didn't know what I did wrong...where to turn. I wasn't even sure I knew how to breathe we had a happy wonderful day one morning...and a crappy one the next...and that same day he's gone with no explanation. The other relationship I had was healing me...but it was healing me the wrong way and I wasn't aware...he didn't leave yet...got forced to end the relationship... And I think that was the hardest thing for me to go through because I am not the type of person to push people away...as I'm writing this its hard...but I'd rather write than have bottled jumbled up feelings. I'm currently in a relationship with an amazing guy now and I think a lot of him. I even love him...he's different he cherishes me, helps me, cares for me, and even loves me more than I love myself. Which is amazing because I don't know what to do with my life half the time. When he's not around I shut down...in a way where I'm not even sure anyone notices. This guy right now is LITERALLY MY LIFE! without the privilege of knowing such a wonderful man I'd probably be dead...my heart hurts so much all the time, but for that moment when he's around me time literally stands still and for just that moment my heart heals. My heart is healing little by little each and every moment... but my heart will never forget the pain and hurt that surrounded me. At least when he's around I feel safe enough to cry and he's there to hold me even if I blubber like a baby...I can only hope with EVERYTHING I HAVE LEFT...that he will always be there...otherwise there is no doubt in my mind that I will break for the last time. I always have one thing in mind to help me through the inevitable: heartbreaks can heal its mind over matter.