Life's Obstacles Forever Unfolding Before Me

I'm out of the nursing home...have been since April. I'm back with mom...things are still kind of the same between us. I think they always will be...she doesn't see a reason to change. I'm doing school, but I switched educational paths. I've decided to become a Public Administrator for the state of Nebraska. I also found someone new his name is Chase and I love him deeply, but he can't seem to find the proper love in his heart. I've been down that road with Aaron...it's frustrating but I got to be there for Chase I can't walk out on him like Aaron did me. It's to painful and I want Chase to know he is okay to open up...I hope this relationship goes well.

Life gets worse before getting better

I am almost 22 and within a short amount of time my life has gone downhill. My dad wants to quit Chemotherapy and as much as I scream on the inside for him not to do so I have to support his decision. Chemo and cancer is rough on a body...my dad says it's like everything is hightened. He can drink or touch anything cold without it feeling like artic ice...and if he touches something warm or hot it feels like molten lava burning him to the bone. So even though this is hard for me...if he chooses to die and quit fighting I will support him every step of the way. My dad doesn't deserve cancer let alone chemo and if ending chemo is what he chooses then we must support him.

If my dad passes on I'm not sure what I want to do with my life....