Embrace life

Things are going much better for me as I have learned to embrace life instead of dwell. I can see my life in a different light now as I have another chance to go to college and I feel like I got this chance not only by my determination and consistency, but I feel like my grandma somehow had a way of getting me accepted as her way of encouraging me and pushing me forward to realize that I am on the RIGHT path now and to not give up but to embrace everything. Either way I am forever grateful and blessed for this opportunity and will learn to embrace it.

A Life That no One Knew

"A Life That no One Knew"
I lived a life that no one knew
What a broken heart had put me through
I live my day by day with a smile of empty hopes and dreams plastered on my face

I had nothing to look forward to and no one to loose...but looking back now it is deemed untrue I look at my life so much clearer and bright

Great dreams are ahead of me I can see them within sight...I hold all my life's purpose undoubtedly at hand, for I know God has a plan for me that measures no end

I look back on my past and laugh and ask myself what I was thinking because now I know that I am undoubtedly capable of living my life at hand

I lived a life no one knew
What a broken heart had put me through
I live my life day by day with a smile of empty hopes and dreams plastered on my face

I now live a life that someone knows
What a broken heart had healed me for
I live my life day by day with a smile of hopes and dreams glowing on my face

Adultery is Upon Me

When I say "adultery" I mean that time in your life where you have to take a step back and own up to your mistakes and basically become the bigger/better person. I did exactly that today when I called my boyfriends mom and apologized for being so harsh to her. I don't understand the extent of what she goes through on a daily basis and I don't think anyone ever will. Considering the fact that no one else is her. Although, I have the right to feel angry for her childish comment doesn't mean that I can't forgive her. With that being said I hope that if you or someone else is confronted in a similar situation like me I hope you have a big enough heart to forgive even if you are angry. And by chance if that person whom you are apologizing to doesn't want to realize that you are trying to be the bigger person just kindly hang up and say "thank you."

Mixed feelings

I look at him and sometimes wonder why he's still with me. I cause him pain I hurt him every time he lifts me. I hate seeing that. I know I'm alot of work and things just seem to perfect to be real... He does everything with no complaining even though he hurts like hell. I love him SO MUCH but I don't know what else to do I hate causing him pain it breaks my heart. I don't like knowing that I'm the one that causes him pain. Also I'm too much work for him...I feel bad...like he could do better than ME...he doesn't deserve me...I'm broken...he deserves someone that can walk...but I don't wanna loose him...I'm being selfish...